I went over this in my mind. what single word would describe what I feel like right now.

"Crushed"

Now keep in mind that this is how I feel right in this moment, and that I've bounced back from worse. I always fuckin bounce back. Music helps a lot with that. When I listen to my music in chronological order I can sometimes read it like a journal. Little bits and pieces are sewn into the fabric of the production that point out my mood and my temper.... maybe even my patience.

So I feel crushed. In German I keep repeating the phrase "Kein Bock" "Kein Bock"
Ich hab kein Bock mir diesen Scheiss weiter an zu hoeren oder an zu schauen.



The light at the end of the tunnel.

What is my tunnel? A tunnel littered with bullshit speed bumps, flickering lights, a bad paint job and horrible ventilation. This tunnel is my journey from my present point, whatever that may be, to the light at the end of it. The light is my successful start of a new chapter in life.
It's so dark in here and the smoke is crawling along the ceiling. Behind me I feel the heat of the dancing tips of flames, casting erratic shadows on to the road ahead. This inevitably pushes me forward. The problem is that the hurdles between me and the end are not static. When I entered this hole, I was able to see the exit. It was far away but in clear sight. Now that I'm closing in on the target like an arrow cutting silently through cold air, predicaments are disturbing my flight path. The emotional fluctuation I'm exposed to makes me numb and leaves room for only one response, which is always on auto-pilot... an empty smile  :)
I'm down but not out. I will arrive at this light... burnt, beaten, crushed, stepped on, with cuts and with bruises... but I will arrive.




....That felt nice to write...  I'm leaving a lot behind. I'm leaving a lot of things that have been with me for a long time. I'm also leaving a lot of potentially awesome times I will now never have. Every decision changes the path that's laid out in the future. In some parallel universe, another version of me is going to enjoy the uncertainty that awaits him here in the states. The version of me that "I" represent has leapt head first into the tunnel mentioned above.

Yesterday was another mini milestone reached towards the final move date. I had my last day at work. I worked there for 4 years and almost went crazy. Now if that's better for creating music or if it hinders the creative process, I'm not sure.

I signed two new tracks to my record label Tiefhaus Records just this week, to be released in January.


I realize that I don't have a very consistent release schedule, because I feel like I'm still in the BETA version of the project. I couldn't really justify laying down firm roots with this label as a company here in the US, when I was about to move back to Germany.
It did, however make me realize how much I'd like to establish a label presence. Once I'm setup in Germany I'd love to get some business consulting meetings scheduled. Building a consistent brand is going to be one of my first goals.

I also recently was in the middle of a deep/tech house mix when I went to look for some new tracks online. I accidentally found a genre link called glitch hop and checked it out just for fun... and oh man. I did some dubstep stuff when people started requesting it like mad at the raves and clubs, but once I heard glitch hop, dubstep sounds like a juvenile child to me. I feel like it takes everything that I like and sometimes need that's anti-house music. Breaks, Drum N Bass, glitch, stutter edit and gangstah rap samples.. I mean after all that what the fuck is bro-step anymore ;)

Now don't get me wrong I'm still all about house but like I said sometimes I need some anti-house to reset and broaden my musical horizons.

So I sat down for two days and crafted this Glitch Hop mix which already has gotten nothing but great reviews and comments. Feel free to download it:


Thomas Radman - [malfunKtion] mix 100bpm Glitch Hop [free download] by ThomasRadman

I'll leave you all with that. I now have about two weeks to straighten things out here in San Jose. On the 22nd of December I'm off to San Diego until January 12th when my plane goes straight to London and then to Munich. How to send my Studio PC, I haven't really figured out yet.

Wish me luck and I'm sure that I'll have more updates until then.

I decided to express my feelings about all kinds of stuff not through my usual articulate prose :) but entirely through the use of YouTube videos:





About Food:


About the News:


About Cars:


About Church:


About my Job:


About Space Travel:


About Money:


About Books:


About San Francisco Club Nights:


About America:


About going to Germany:


About returning to California one day:


About the Police:


About the Government:


About my Cats:


About making Music:


About Myself:

The end of the year is approaching at what seems like light speed. As everyone should know by now, it is necessary for me to go back to Germany. Now seems like the time to do it. Although I have to make this enormous move, the follow through is anything but easy. I feel like certain people that I'm close to will perceive this situation as me abandoning them. I want to make clear that I would take all of my friends with me if I could. Please start planning your Germany vacations for next summer Now! :)

This moment is as good as any to thank all the artists that have put enough faith in me and into my label Tief Haus Recordings to let me release their work for them.

Dariio of course was there since the start and basically let me experiment on his EP, and we both learned a lot about what it takes to get a label started.

The other artists who released their original work and who have done remix work for my releases, will always be a part of the group that has given me the confidence to transform TiefHaus from a vision into reality:

Hugo Allen
Mystiquemotions
Montana 1948
Calvin Karass
David Jeffreys
Houserocka
Jelly for the Babies
Mikey V
Nick Wax
Phonic Youth
Soul Puncherz
TransitBot
Travis T.
Viro & Rob Analyze

Special Thanks to Sno Jo Radio for always pushing my labels new releases!

Thank you guys for believing in my crazy idea that turned into a label.

My plan is to continue to run the label no matter where I'm located. Germany of course is in my opinion a much more appropriate location for a record label HQ. My door is always open to.

that's the header of the biography of my new side project.
I needed something to release my deep house production urges as.
So I created Parshan.. which is really just my middle name, but so suitable for deep and tech house I think.

Parshan Facebook Page

So Radman will be my harder side as well as any dubstep I might still be pumpin out.. but I'm really excited for this Parshan project.. first track is already in the bag and is called Day Zero.. because it feels like the moment after the apocalypse happened but at the same time it metaphorically is also the beginning of a new musical world and journey for myself.

Parshan - Day Zero
Parshan - Day Zero (Radio Edit) by ThomasRadman

I will most likely release this on my own label Tief Haus.. after I get the artwork for the name done as well as the first single album cover. (Thanks Maggie!)

Anyways.. Everything is super exciting at the moment and I'll keep everyone posted.
-Thomas

Check out my new release, available everywhere. Here is the link:

http://www.beatport.com/release/revolt/396251

This year holds many mile stones for me. I turned 30... which makes me feel pretty good. It's the closest to grown up that I've ever felt.


I graduated from the San Jose State University with a degree in International Business. It took me about eleven years of college and university time (minus a few years slacking) to get to this point and I'm super proud of myself. I liked school a lot, now I don't really know what to do next.


I've also made a pseudo announcement on my music page that I'm stepping back from official DJ gigs as well as certain party habits, to concentrate more on music production. If you haven't seen that announcement before, then here it is again.
This comes right after I released the craziest Mix I've ever created, not to toot my own horn too much :) You should just download it and give it a listen: 50 tracks in 24 minutes.
miniMEGA May 2011 (miniMix) 320 Download by ThomasRadman

Not DJing has worked out well so far. I've received at least four remix requests in the past two days, so I definitely have stuff to do to keep busy. I'm currently finishing up a remix for J. Scott G. which has turned out to be another one of this chill style dubstep tracks.. it's just what I felt the vocals needed and that's the type of approach I've been using lately. It's especially awesome with the NI Maschine which I love!


The biggest event, though, has to be my move back to Germany. There is no date set so far, but with school finished I don't have any more official business to take care of. It's probably going to happen within the next six months. For those who don't know, I absolutely have to move. Seven years ago I got myself into some legal issues and having a green card put me into a weird position. After talking with over fifteen different lawyers in these past years I've decided that the best thing for me would be to give up my green card and basically voluntarily deport myself. If I were to go through the deportation proceedings there is a chance of being held in immigration jail for about six to twelve months. There is no need for me to risk something like that since Germany is Awesome anyways. Don't fight fate!


SO to anyone facing big milestones in their lives, I think it's best to just tackle them head on. Make an adventure out of it. Open up that new chapter and don't be afraid to explore new worlds, metaphorically or practically. The world is getting smaller and smaller and I'll never be out of touch with my old friends. I know some of you have been looking for an excuse to visit Germany, well there will be another one soon.

Have a Nice Day
-Thomas

So after listening to Annie Mac's mini mixes and LudaCHRIST's crazy mixes, I've been inspired to do something like that for the last 2 years.

I finally sat down and tried to think about what my mix would contain, how long it was going to be and how I was even going to approach the project.

Since this is the first one of what's probably going to be a series of mixes, I really wanted to put a few older influences into it. I added some of the hip hop that I used to listen to before I moved to the US and then dressed the rest of the mix up with some quick switching electro.

Here is the track list although it's more like a sample list. I really wanted to go all out and ditch the rules of music production and mixing. The result is a 24 minute massive mini mix.

Download Link:
http://soundcloud.com/thomasradman/minimega-may-2011

*all mash ups in this mix are 100% home grown :)

track(SAMPLE) list:
01. Access Denied & Jellyfish - After The Sunset
02. Zombie Nation - Radio Controlled (Hey Today Remix)
03. Justice - Phantom
04. Modeselektor - Godspeed
05. Beastie Boys - Intergalactic
06. Bodyrox - Yeah Yeah feat. Luciana
07. Fedde Le Grand - Put Your Hands Up For "Berlin" (Radman Edit)
08. Felix Cartal - Berlin
09. DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince - Boom Shake The Room
10. Wolfgang Gartner - Space Junk
11. Mr. Oizo - Two It Takes feat. Carmen Castro
12. Chris Lake - If You Knew (Feed Me Remix)
13. White Town - Your Woman
14. Wippenberg - Pong
15. Daft Punk - Around The World
16. Ferry Corsten - Cubicated
17. Oliver Huntemann - 37 Degrees
18. Zombie Nation - Supercake 53
19. sebastiAn - Walkman
20. Busta Rhymes - Dangerous
21. Michael Jackson - Dirty Diana (Thomas Radman Remix)
22. Fonzerelli - Moonlight Party
23. Sharam - PATT
24. Freestylers - Cracks feat. Belle Humble (Flux Pavillion Remix)
25. Skrillex - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites
26. Datsik & Excision - Boom
27. Datsik & Excision - Swagga
28. Don Diablo - Animale feat. Dragonette (Datsik Remix)
29. Beastie Boys - The Move
30. Thomas Radman - Artificial Prototype
31. Warren G - Regulate
32. Jon Lajoie - Everyday Normal Guy
33. Sneaker Pimps 6 Underground
34. Skee-Lo - I Wish (I was a little bit Taller)
35. NIN - Closer
36. Justice - Genesis 1.5
37. Wolfgang Gartner - Hook Shot
38. Mike & Charlie - I Get Live (Fatboy Slim Remix)
39. Benny Benassi - Satisfaction
40. Access Denied & Jelly Fish - Carukia Barnesi
41. Green Velvet - Flash (Nicky Romero Remix)
42. Hyper - The End (Beatman & Ludmilla Remix)
43. R3hab - The Bottle Song
44. Calvin Harris - Awooga
45. Afrojack - Doing It Right
46. Ferry Corsten - Punk (Sidney Samson Remix)
47. Mord Fustang - The Electric Dream
48. Millions Like Us - Don't Let Go (Far Too Loud Remix)
49. Wolfgang Gartner - Forever feat. will.i.am
50. Supermusique! & Scot Project - Do You Want Me (Lazy Rich Remix)

First of all, Jackie A. you are Awesome!
Here are some of the shots that she took at this great spot John Beaver discovered. After the Police officer declined a bribe to let us into the construction site, we found our own way in and started shooting. We ran into a homeless guy who was there to find copper wires or something.

These pictures are for our Coachella Mixes for this year. Everything is wrapping up nicely and with that a long busy Spring Break week for me as well. On Wednesday we have our official release party at 525 Howard in San Francisco.

Here is the Facebook Event Link:
https://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=195115050521020&ref=ts




Once we have sorted through these, I'll post the pictures on Facebook.

I'm super stoked!

So John Beaver and I have started it up again. We knocked out a whole mix tonight. This year we'll have a 2-Disc Set again. He spent quite some time getting the track list together and I'm definitely trying my hardest to piece it all into one cohesive mix.

It is rumored that this year the mixes will be up on a page linked to URB Magazine, but I don't know the details, yet. The whole archive is still available on my website for download: